Sunday, July 29

Strong feelings and anguish unsolved

somethings affect you soo much and are soo soo useless..that they dont deserve a mention at all...and yet have the potential to make you lose your temper, mood and everything that would possibly be edging towards making your day feel the best!

and what is realy wrong about expecting few basic things from people you love or want to look upto.. very rightly said, you intelligence can make you get places...i would add a may be and say if the demeanor and attitude are absent, please dont bother. coz if I am there, you wont be!

I hate when I have to state the obvious, and when that is too too difficult because of an ego thrashing at the back of the mind. there are some decisions to be made, which is not my strength, but I promise I will surpass my expectations!!

and if it sounds like you give up on me...I dont know if and what I should make of it 

1 comment:

Maverick said...

I hope you are not confusing causality with reaction. Your vijnana is a direct consequence of the samskara. (A swift Wiki click-through is in order here). Lest affection be substituted with affectation one would do well to keep separate the two vedanas. (Apologies are in order, was dying to expend myself of these Sanskrit gems). A mole grows to be a mountain only in the minds of men (le grande de dialogue'). Such is the vocation, only of a zealously stretched (and fascinating) mind. Expectations are not by themselves sore bones of contention, meant only to be evoked at times of distress or inflammation. They are, within themselves, and very rightly, a source of continued reliance. Yes, mental faculties, or more commonly the IQ, can never be mistaken for the EQ, but then they are not independent either (more on this once I figure out what it is). Demeanor and attitude speaks for someone who cannot relate something through their words correct? In all the other platitudes, words over-power the rest does it not? The green-eyed sulker is far worse than the chest-thumper, I believe. Stating the obvious hmm? Intrinsically, are we not all guilty of the same at some level? Decisions have a way of knocking itself on the door (sometimes uninvited), letting itself in of its own accord (while you keep protesting) and drinking away the wine (even in times of scarcity) whilst you sit back and watch Friends rerun on that Star World evening show . Let not the lack of a decision dissuade you. Its more fun than being decisive about everything. Now would that not a robot make? You are the challenger to your very own expectation and no one else can beat you to it I suppose. Seriously man, such few stitched up words, such malignant anger. Highly pernicious I must let you know. Your forte is not only how farther you go before you give up, its more to do with how you brace yourself up after. Make a poem or two, uncork some bubblies, tumblers after tumblers- drain yourself of your bootlegged draught, exercise the expansive strides of the mind in things more closely aligned with the one big principle you should diligently follow. THE PRINCIPLE OF BEING GAY!! (the more conservative definition of it of course, as in, gay and hearty or maybe gay and frolic or even gay and happy)